As time has went by, I have begun to reach my limits as to what I will put up with and what I will not. I have begun to stand my ground, knowing that there is not much more I can take.
“Isn’t it enough that I left the forum and closed down my chat programs?”
The above words keep echoing in my head. First of all, he may have shut down his chat programs, but he never really left the forum. He refused to allow the owner to delete him and even told the owner that he would return at a later time. To me, that says he is only taking a break.
In one hand, he has the forum. In the other hand, he has the marriage. It must be quite difficult to decide, which one is more important to him. If his marriage was more important, he would have left the forum for good and never looked back. But that is not the case. I know exactly how much he values this marriage and it isn’t much.
He continues bringing up the forum as though it were a lost love that he misses very deeply. If his leaving the forum had come from the heart, he would not be regretting the decision he made. He didn’t leave the forum to help us and this marriage. He left the forum for the time being, in order to shut me up.
No, it’s not enough that he is just taking a break from the forum. Now if he would have left it for good, and started working on this marriage, then yes, it would have been enough. It would have shown me what is more important to him. It would have shown me that he finally realizes the damage he has caused here, and is now willing to help repair it.