I never knew

*I wrote the first half prior to finding out about the affair and the second half after it was verified*

                                                                             I never knew

I never knew what it felt like to find out that the person you love so much and thought was your world, would cause it to come crashing down with no explanation at all.

I never knew that loving someone so much would cause you to not be able to breathe at times just from the fear of losing them forever.

I never knew that my heart could break into a million tiny pieces in a matter of only one second.

I never knew what it felt like to have someone no longer want you in their life or how it feels to no longer feel love from the one person who has always given you love.

I never knew how empty a person could feel without the love they are so accustomed to receiving.

I never knew that years could pass so quickly just like a stranger in a crowd and once you realize it, you find that you have lost part of yourself along the way.

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I never knew that the one person I have always loved and trusted could hurt me so deeply by lying and cheating on me.

I never knew that the one person I have always loved could look me straight in the eye and lie right to my face about something that could turn our world upside down.

I never knew that the one person I have always loved could not only hurt me so deeply but would turn things around to make it all look like I was the one at fault.

I never knew that a person could be so selfish by watching the one they love hurt so much and not do anything to comfort them.