Looking back on the bad dream that became my reality, it’s surprising to see how far I’ve come. I can now say that I have definitely moved beyond the frustration I felt in the early days, when my husband was not helping me with my pain nor taking responsibility for his actions. It all seems so surreal... Continue Reading →
Mourning
It started with just a simple text message followed by a few more H received. It wasn’t so much the messages he received from his female friend “B”, or the fact that they came over very late at night, but rather the attention he gave them. Instead of him saying it’s late and he would... Continue Reading →
His affair exposed on a forum
I went into the office to check to see what H was doing and found him in chat. When I asked who it was, he told me it was “A” (one of the two women he is to not have any contact with). I was very upset to say the least. I asked him what was going... Continue Reading →
Holding on to hope
I'm just holding on to a little bit of hope thinking that the next day, he's going to snap completely out of it and realize what he really wants. I cannot wait around forever and be tortured every day just for the way he acts towards me and the things he says. “I'm really tired... Continue Reading →
Saying Goodbye
One interesting thing I have come to realize about myself during that unbelievable three and a half weeks was that I was actually grieving and saying goodbye to this place and the memories we had here. I think I accomplished to do just that as I no longer see this place the same anymore. I... Continue Reading →
What does he really want?
He asked me to stay again even though our financial situation is grim. Promises were made of finding another place to live since we need a complete environment change. He also mentioned accompanying him on business trips and spending more time together in the process. This was basically the same thing he had mentioned to... Continue Reading →
The day after
I am in total disbelief as to what happened yesterday. This morning, I felt as though I had just waken up from a bad dream and I was trying to convince myself that what did take place was all in my mind. About an hour later, I realized what had happened was actually my reality.... Continue Reading →
The day after…Mis-fortunate Events?
I spent about an hour crying as though I were mourning for someone I had lost. The pain was different this time. I felt it in the pit of my stomach, way deep inside. I hid myself away in another room so my daughter wouldn't see me so upset. Its hard to hear a little... Continue Reading →
The day my heart died
It started as just an ordinary day. A day of going through all the things I accumulated over the last several years of my life here in this country. My husband and I had been in continuous conversations about our marriage and financial status over the last four weeks. At least we finally accomplished something... Continue Reading →
Fever inside the Storm 