Throughout the months, I continued having hope with what little of my heart I had left. Hope that one day, H would wake up and finally realize all he has done to us and would know just how much he wanted our marriage and family. Shamelessly, I continued to have hope while going through so much... Continue Reading →
What kind of marriage could this ever be?
I read a story of a man whose marriage was affected by Infidelity. After three years, he is calling it quits. His needs have not been met and it’s time to move on. I knew right then and there exactly what he meant. His wife has not helped him heal, been there for him whenever... Continue Reading →
How far
I have had a rough couple of days. I’ve been watching music videos as I always tend to do when I’m down. I found this one which best describes where I’m at right now. And this one…”In my Daughter’s eyes”. My daughter gives me all the strength I need.
Guilt vs. Remorse
H doesn't understand the definition of the word remorse and even though I have told him what it is, he still doesn't seem to understand. So, with the help of some friends, here is what I gathered..... Guilt is a common emotion but can create unhappiness and depression. There is an important difference between remorse... Continue Reading →
Isn’t it enough?
As time has went by, I have begun to reach my limits as to what I will put up with and what I will not. I have begun to stand my ground, knowing that there is not much more I can take. “Isn't it enough that I left the forum and closed down my chat... Continue Reading →
Memory flashbacks
If you have been affected by Infidelity and are currently in your second marriage, you will find yourself having flashbacks when there is a repeat occurrence in your second marriage, which resembles that of your first. Your mind tends to wonder to your past life as though it was yesterday, and all the anger and... Continue Reading →
He will learn who his true friends are
H told me that he hasn’t logged on to the forum, but he did go to the site today to check it out. He noticed that two people have realized that he hasn’t been around in a week. Another member sent him a text message asking him where he was, since he hadn’t seen him... Continue Reading →
An email he received
The other day when I asked H to remove all the women from his chat programs, he didn’t quite understand the reason behind it. I should have been more specific in telling him that I no longer wanted him to converse with other women. If I would have done so, then maybe he would have... Continue Reading →
I’m still alive!
No, H did not kill me, nor did he get upset like I thought he would; possibly because he knows all this to be true. I can only imagine how difficult it must be for him to go back through all the words we’ve exchanged, leading up to where we are today. Well, all I... Continue Reading →
Out of the mouths of babes
H wasn’t in a very good mood today. After lunch, I was in the kitchen with our daughter making H a coffee. Although I don’t know why, in a jokingly way, I said “I wonder why daddy is being so mean today”. Her reply, which floored me, was, “Because he doesn’t love you”. Keep in mind, this... Continue Reading →
Fever inside the Storm 