“Why can’t we just wake up tomorrow and act as though nothing happened?” After I found out about H affair, I heard this phrase from him repeatedly. Now it surfaces again. I guess through the entire process, he has not learned, nor accepted what he had done seeing it for what it is. If he... Continue Reading →
He has the upper hand
I was actually floored when I heard H say that he wanted to secure me with a place of my own. At first, I felt as though he were trying to get rid of me faster than I could say good bye. It still hadn’t sunk in yet. Deep down, I guess I still believed that... Continue Reading →
Sometimes love just ain’t enough
A couple of days ago in passing, H told me he didn’t know where we stood. Now he knows exactly how I have been feeling all these months. I have not known where we stood since the day I found out about his affair, and as the months passed, I still did not get any answers... Continue Reading →
Everything I do, I do it for you
While living in a foreign country, you tend to do things according to the customs and culture. If you’re lucky like I’ve been, you’ll have someone to show you what is acceptable behavior. Someone to show you the ropes and how to deal with people. You might lose part of yourself along the way. A... Continue Reading →
International Law prevents me from leaving
Over the last several months, I have been feeling like H has had me exactly where he wants me. The mutual agreement regarding custody of our daughter was something we both agreed to sign. However, it was put off during the time I was sick. When the matter came up again, H refused to sign... Continue Reading →
A legal matter upon leaving
Knowing that it’s over, I contacted our Attorney this morning. She was not in, so I requested to speak to someone else to have a question answered. The Attorney I spoke with is the main Attorney there, whose name represents this particular law firm. I explained that I was ready to walk with my daughter... Continue Reading →
The hope is gone
Throughout the months, I continued having hope with what little of my heart I had left. Hope that one day, H would wake up and finally realize all he has done to us and would know just how much he wanted our marriage and family. Shamelessly, I continued to have hope while going through so much... Continue Reading →
What kind of marriage could this ever be?
I read a story of a man whose marriage was affected by Infidelity. After three years, he is calling it quits. His needs have not been met and it’s time to move on. I knew right then and there exactly what he meant. His wife has not helped him heal, been there for him whenever... Continue Reading →
How far
I have had a rough couple of days. I’ve been watching music videos as I always tend to do when I’m down. I found this one which best describes where I’m at right now. And this one…”In my Daughter’s eyes”. My daughter gives me all the strength I need.
An email he received
The other day when I asked H to remove all the women from his chat programs, he didn’t quite understand the reason behind it. I should have been more specific in telling him that I no longer wanted him to converse with other women. If I would have done so, then maybe he would have... Continue Reading →
Fever inside the Storm 