While living in a foreign country, you tend to do things according to the customs and culture. If you’re lucky like I’ve been, you’ll have someone to show you what is acceptable behavior. Someone to show you the ropes and how to deal with people. You might lose part of yourself along the way. A... Continue Reading →
Inner peace
It has been very quiet around here over the last three days. For the first time, since all this began, I feel very calm. It’s not the calm before the storm, because there is no storm in sight. It’s more like an inner peace. It feels like my spirit has left my body and has taken along... Continue Reading →
Soul searching
Now that H is no longer on “that forum”, there is calmness between us. Sure we have our issues but now we no longer have to deal with our issues on top of other problems that “that forum” brought into our marriage. Plus, we no longer have to deal with his misbehaving, flirting with other women,... Continue Reading →
International Law prevents me from leaving
Over the last several months, I have been feeling like H has had me exactly where he wants me. The mutual agreement regarding custody of our daughter was something we both agreed to sign. However, it was put off during the time I was sick. When the matter came up again, H refused to sign... Continue Reading →
Save up all your tears
Since the day after I found out about H infidelity, he has not shed one tear. I say the day after, because the day that I found out about his affair, he cried if only for a few minutes. It was during the time when he thought that he would lose me and our daughter.... Continue Reading →
A legal matter upon leaving
Knowing that it’s over, I contacted our Attorney this morning. She was not in, so I requested to speak to someone else to have a question answered. The Attorney I spoke with is the main Attorney there, whose name represents this particular law firm. I explained that I was ready to walk with my daughter... Continue Reading →
The hope is gone
Throughout the months, I continued having hope with what little of my heart I had left. Hope that one day, H would wake up and finally realize all he has done to us and would know just how much he wanted our marriage and family. Shamelessly, I continued to have hope while going through so much... Continue Reading →
What kind of marriage could this ever be?
I read a story of a man whose marriage was affected by Infidelity. After three years, he is calling it quits. His needs have not been met and it’s time to move on. I knew right then and there exactly what he meant. His wife has not helped him heal, been there for him whenever... Continue Reading →
How far
I have had a rough couple of days. I’ve been watching music videos as I always tend to do when I’m down. I found this one which best describes where I’m at right now. And this one…”In my Daughter’s eyes”. My daughter gives me all the strength I need.
Guilt vs. Remorse
H doesn't understand the definition of the word remorse and even though I have told him what it is, he still doesn't seem to understand. So, with the help of some friends, here is what I gathered..... Guilt is a common emotion but can create unhappiness and depression. There is an important difference between remorse... Continue Reading →
Fever inside the Storm 